Post by ELENA BOULET on May 7, 2011 19:17:37 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, background-image:url(http://i54.tinypic.com/2vafwqd.jpg), border: solid #ffffff 5px; width: 400px; height: 500px;] MYNAMEIS: Elena Kaitlyn Boulet CALLME: Elle, Ella, Lena, Kaite, Lyn, Kat ILIKE: Boys IAM: eighteen BORNON: April 15, 1993 SPECIES: Shifter WHAT TYPE: Amur leopard ======================================== PLAYEDBY: Nina Dobrev HEIGHT: 5'5" WEIGHT: 119 MYHAIR: Her hair is beautiful, long and naturally curly. The color itself is anywhere from a dark brown to black, all depending on the light. Now her hair, she has a habit of wearing it straight but it all depends on the mood. MYEYES: A very deep and rich shade of chocolate is the color of her eyes. MYFACE: Her face is round; perhaps even heart shaped. Elena's features fit her overall appearance rather well. Almond shaped eyes fit her small nose rather well. Her lips aren't overwhelming or anything like that. MYBODY: She has a very petite frame; though her height is slightly bellow average. SPECIAL: N/a ======================================== ILOVE: -her friends -simple things -romance -roses -books -outside -swimming IHATE: -pain -being alone -liars -vampires -senseless violence -thunderstorms DONTTELL: -She's imprinted upon Kevin and that's the true reason why she agreed to marry him. SCAREDOF: -That things will always remain as they are -She's claustrophobic -What people think of her WANTTO: -Figure out her feelings for Kevin STRENGTHS: -brave -intelligent -loyal -caring WEAKNESSES: -Stubborn -impulsive -at times let's her emotions control her -Temperamental -perfectionist TALENTS: -She is a fast learner -Good at reading people POWER: N/a ABOUTME: Elena has always been a fighter, one of those people that never backed down and always wanted something that she could not have. People called her spoiled, but she called it jealousy. Elena figures that she is right, while you are wrong, and will never have to prove her self in anything. She is one sided, and sticks to anything that she decides to do, whether people like it or not, she will be the one to crumble you down, or build you up. It depends on which side that you know her on. Friend or Enemy? In the end she is the one that gets to decide, not you. But that does not mean that Elena does not have a soft side, it just means that it is hard to find in the long run. She hates crying about anything, but loves arguing. She is a hypocrite in the long run, and the worst part is that she knows it but hate to admit it. People know it, but still want to talk to her whenever they can. She gets talked about behind her back, but adored in person. She is the same girl that everyone is on the inside, the one that loves hot guys, and will never be different in the world. She is conceited and hates it, and now she has a chance to change if she wants to. Elena's personality can vary from situation to situation. She protects those who are threatened and protects herself with a guarded heart not many have passed that barrier. She is an excellent listener and gives advice the best she can and most people who receive it say it’s the best...but of course she’ll only give advise to those she really cares about. She does not anger easily but once you have her hot and angry you want to be on her good side not against her she has a fierce bite and she will not hold back. ======================================== BORNIN: Baton Rouge, Louisiana LIVING IN: Baton Rouge, Louisiana MOTHER: Selena Boulet FATHER: Tyler Boulet SIBLINGS: n/a THEKIDS: n/a IMPORTANTPEEPS: n/a OTHERHALF: Kevin Crooks THEPETS: N/A GOODMEMORY: When she was a little girl, the day she got her kitten Muffy. It's probably one of the few memories she has as a young child. They day was bittersweet, it was horrible but getting Muffy made it all better. BADMEMORY: When Erik broke her heart, it's something she'll never forget. It was a six moths ago, after they got into a fight. He was getting impatient that she wouldn't have sex with her. When she realized she was ready; she went over to apologize to him...his Mother let her in not knowing he was with another girl. She walked in on them having sex...with her best friend Carlie. Never in her life had she ever cried so much. HISTORY: Life was perfect for Selena and Tyler; at least that's what everyone who saw them believed. High school sweethearts, the perfect couple....they had their issues but for the most part they were happy. It seemed foolish, but that wasted no time getting married right out of high school and nine months later a baby girl was born. The baby was named Elena Kaitlyn Boulet after Selena's Grandmother whir died a week prior to her daughters' birth. Her Grandmother was everything to her..her parents died when she was little and her Nanna was the one who raised her. With the death of her Grandmother, came the assurance that their daughter would be okay. Selena inherited quite a bit of money, but it took her years to truly appreciate it; considering it came with such loss. Though forcing herself to move of, she focused on Tyler and upon their beautiful baby girl. It was hard; even with the money...raising a baby was anything but easy. Waking up at all hours of the night; and at times never quite knowing what she wanted. It was stressful but the love they felt for her outweighed all the negative things. Growing up, Elena was showered with all the love and affection she could possibly have. She adored both her parents; and she loved even more spending time with then. Going to the park, going swimming, and when she was really good getting ice cream. Shortly after her fifth birthday, Elena got sick with the chicken poxes. It was a truly miserable time for her, she hurt and she was itchy. Worst of all she wasn't allowed to get out of bed and do anything. She got a kitty out of it though, a few days before she got better her parents bought her a grey and white stripped cat she named Muffy. Muffy was her best friend, one of her best friends. The other? Erik of course, the son of her parents best friend. He was born a few months before her but they didn't play much until the two of them were old enough to do things on their own. When they finally gave each other a Chance, they were inseparable. They did just about everything together, and as they got older...their friendship naturally became something more. They officially became a couple in the sixth grade...after school they were walking home and he asked her. It was unexpected but she was happy and she said yes without any thoughts of regret. They had their fights, broke up a few times but they always got back together eventually. Now their parents of course were pleased. Because after all, what friends don't imagine their kids one day ending up together. It seemed for them, it would happen...well up until six months ago. Despite how close Erik and Elena were, he started pressuring her about sex. She always turned him down, saying she wasn't ready...something like that...it was important to her and she didn't want to rush it. After a huge argument, and spending a few days away from him... She changed her mind. After realizing this she rushed over to his house. His mom let her in and upstairs in his room, she walked in on him and her other best friend. Telling him she hated him and never wanted to see him again, she rushed our of the house before giving him the chance to say anything. She was devastated, he was everything to her...and he had broken her heart. Elena locked herself up in her room for weeks, and when her parents finally forced her to go back. It took months before she was back to normal....some normalcy came to her in the form of Richard Crooks. He and his family were new to town. He was nice and being around him was fun and most importantly easy. And before she knew it, he had become her best friend. She cared about him but terrified of being hurt, she couldn't open her heart up again. One day he decided he wanted her to meet his family...that day changed her life. It was then she met his Father Kevin Crooks, the love of her life. As stupid as it sounds, it's very true. Everything changed when she met him and she knew she had imprinted. He wanted her, and with some reluctance at first...she agreed to marry him. Worried she hurt Richard, she tries to distract herself with plans of her wedding. ======================================== ALIAS: Bella HOWYOUFOUNDUS: made the site OTHERCHARACTERS: Bella, Cynthia, Melanie RP SAMPLE: With Edward, it was like a double sided coin. It was impossible to be happy, to have all the good things, without taking all the bad things that came with it. But in this case, she was all the bad things. Nearly, no really all of the problems, one way or the other, all began because of her. It wasn’t fair…Edward was such a good person. So caring, intelligent, and brilliant; even as a human…he would always be so much better than she. So…why he loved her so much, it never really made any sense to Bella. There were millions of girls, so many better suited for him and yet, he wanted her. A plain, ordinary girl…her positive qualities were average. But her bad traits, the fact that she was a danger magnet and a klutz and an overall selfish person, they were above and beyond the norm…. What was she supposed to do now, how on earth could she possibly fix this. At the moment she should be down on the ground, begging for his forgiveness, begging for him to let her stay. She didn’t deserve him in her life to be quite honest, what she did deserve, however, was for Edward to kick her out. To tell her that he wanted nothing to do with her and then never let her see her son again. Bella’s heart throbbed at the thought. The simple idea of never seeing Edward or Ej….it was enough to crush her soul. And really, that would be what would happen to her. She had to get rid of that thought even though it was very possible. Or at least it really would only be what she deserved. But…she knew no matter what she did, Edward would never do that to her…. No matter how much part of her wanted him to. She hated hurting Jacob, but she hated causing Edward pain even more. He believed in her, trusted her and yet she always seemed to go behind him back and hurt him somehow. She didn’t mean to cause people pain, she was the only one who should suffer and yet she always seemed to drag everyone else down with her. It wasn’t fair…but then again when was it ever fair? She couldn’t help but wonder…a tiny part of herself at least, how things would have turned out if she’d never been born…or simply if she hadn’t moved to Forks. She wanted to believe everyone’s lives would have been better but she was a selfish person after all and she couldn’t bring herself to do that. To be here in his arms, it was a comfort and yet it only made her feel that much more horrible about all of this. Feeling guilty wasn't going to make anything better. After all, if she could only be faithful, she wouldn't have to feel this way. There wasn't a doubt within Bella, she knew that she loved Edward with everything that she was. But she was simply unable to say goodbye to Jacob. And until she did... Edward would never truly trust her again. God. She just wanted to scream, what was she supposed to do. How could Edward possibly ever forgive her. Maybe she knew that he would and that's why she was so upset...because she didn't deserve his forgivness. There was only one thing she could do and....she just couldn't. Jacob....No, she couldn't. He had to be a part of her life. Anymore it really was impossible to see how, but she still cared so much about him. He was her best friend and even if she tried to deny it, she really did love him. That love though was nothing like what she felt for Edward, but it was enough to cause both Edward and Jacob pain. She knew in reality if she just left them both, everyone would eventually be ok. Didn't they deserve to be happy more than she? Bit she bit her lower lip, breathing in slowly. Trying so desperatly to calm herself down. Getting upset like this, the only thing she'd get was Edward's sympathy. Truly it was something that she didn't deserve. He was trying to comfort her and make her feel better. She wanted to sigh, but not a single sound escaped her lips. For at the moment she was choking back another sob. This was the first time that she truly missed being a vampire. How she'd been able, for that short period of time, to hide her emotions. Not everything she was feeling was written out on her face clear for the world to see. But now, being the 'open book' she could only imagine what her face and even her eyes showed Edward. That was the reason why she was trying her hardest not to look at him. Her attetion on the floor, the walls, any random piece of furniture. There had to be something internally wrong with her, her life up untill this point. for the past few months really, it had been perfect. Not one was after her family, and nothing stood in the way of her life with Edward. But of course, she wasn't happy with that... Well she was, but for some reason she had to make a problem of something. And with that thought she had to force herself back to reality. She really needed to stop this and now. All she was doing was feeling sorry for herself instead of trying to think of how to make things ok again. Bella was honestly tempted to speak again, she needed to say something. This silence was really going to drive her insanse. She parted her lips, taking in a small breath as she prepared to talk. But then, she stopped, her words cut off at the feel of Edward's hand against the side of her face. Her two main reactions at the moment were to wince and/or pull away from him. But somehow she'd stopped from doing either. If she'd reacted like that...what would he have thoughten about that. Did it matter though, what could she do now that would ever make him think less of her. She loathed the fact that she truly knew, no matter what, he'd never hate her. "Shh, my love." The sound of his voice, it was so soothing to her and yet it made her hate herself that much more. She wanted to forget all of this and act as if nothing was wrong, but, that was truly impossible to do. She bit her lip, to keep quite. She'd already began to cry, something she'd promised herself she wouldn't do. She needed to pill herself together. Take whatever punishment she was going to get with dignity. After all whatever Edward decided, it would of course only be what she deserved. He then pulled her closer to him, and tucked her head beneath his own. Rocking them both gently back and forth, she allowed herself to remain here. Despite how much she wanted to pull away, she knew she didn't have anywhere close to that type of will power. "You can have whatever you want. Just be happy. You have every right to be here. You also had every right to see him." Even though she had expected him to say something along the lies of this. She still couldn't stop herself from feeling the pain and the guilt that went along with those words. She quickly shook her head back and forth, her eyes closing for a moment. "No. No....I know what I want you but...I don't deserve you, I never have and we both know that I never will..." She cut herself off, stoping only when he led her towards the couch. Her body was physically and emotionally drained but sleep was beyond impossible in a moment like this. With both of them on the couch, she could not find the will to even want to pull away. With him holding her so close again, she wanted to act as f nothing was wrong. She didn't want to cause all of these problems but it was like she honeslty had no other choice... No say in the matter. "You love us both, I realize that. I should not have thought that a ring would be the end of it. From my own perspective, I suppose that I found everything impossibly perfect. I had not given as much thought to yours and Jacob's relationship and that is entirely my fault." Why...why did he always do that to her? It was her fault, it always was and yet...somehow he always found a way to make himself believe that it was in fact, his fault. She pushed against his chest, moving back so that she could look up at his face. "Stop!" She snapped, for the first time not really caring if she raised her voice or not, she was beyond sick of him always going so easy on her, she didn't deserve his kindness or his forgiveness. "Please, just stop doing this to me. This is all my fault and no one elses. Not your's. Not Jacob's. It's mine. And what you expected our wedding, us getting married should have been the end of it. Edward I love you....and you alone....You're the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. If I wasn't one hundred percent sure of that, I wouldn't have agreed to marry you. So please, stop being so understanding. I'm a horrible person, why can't you just see that?!"" Her voice was louder at first but as she continued her voice slowly began to fade untill it was barely audible when she finished. So many times she'd nearly lost control of herself. Her shoulders had begun to shake lightly but this time she'd managed to keep from crying. "Bella, I can let you go. I know you love me, but if there is a chance you love him more, well then I cannot hold you back." With those words....to be quite honest it felt as if he'd taken a knife and plunged it straight into her heart. Really that pain would have hurt less than what she felt now... He could let her go....? Even if it was just a statment...she couldn't bare to hear those words. Just imagining being without him, she couldn't survive another day. "You can let me go..." She had to choke the words out and then pausing for a moment before she could continue. "Maybe...you can...but, I can't let you go...I'm- I'm not strong enough to do that... Edward, I loved you so much....it consumes me...This is all my fault....that you can't see that I'm yours and that's nevr going to change... My heart, my soul.....I don't want to live without you....." She wispered softlu realizing how stupid she sounded but she honestly didn't care at this point. she needed to show hit that she did mean what she was saying to him.... "I can still be in your life if you wish. The pain would fade eventually...Honestly, the one thing I can't handle is being the man that could eventually be in a one sided marriage. If you are going to continue to see him, if it is better for you, if you still want to stay with me, I won't mind as long as Ej is out of it." "This is your decision, I don't want you to put me or even him first. Please, take a moment to consider what you want. It will...'Soften the blow,' if you will, the sooner you tell me." This time she chose to say nothing, waiting untill he finished with everything he had to say. And really, it was a good thing she didn't say anything fpr she knew that she would have no control over ehrslef at this point. Edward was considering all of these things...Believeing that she didn't love him and that she wanted to leave. She honestly had no idea what to say. It wans't true....not at all but how was she supposed to make him see that..... "No...No..." She forced out shaking her head once again as she buried her face in his chest, she couldn't look at him and she didn't want him to see her. "I'm not going anywhere....p-please believe that.... I-I know that I've been horrible to you and I don't deserve you or Ej... But please...i-if you let me stay.... I..." She stopped, these next words would kill her to say but she had to "I'll never see Jacob again....." elena kaitlyn boulet |
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